An old post that stayed in my "Drafts" till STG's blog reminded me of it.. probably a good time to post as we enter the new year..
As probably most of us do, I consider myself a sum of many interconnected parts which influence and draw from each other. They make up my mood, health and the general sense of happiness or well being. I want to address them separately so that none feels neglected and they can all work together.
Physical - Make peace with it. The body has been through a lot since the birth of K and changed in many ways. While working out still remains a distant dream even now, at least begin in the way of eating right ( I believe I have started in my small way). At any stage, fat or skinny (not seeing that in this lifetime again, I am sure), never to belittle (pun intended) the body - respect it, enjoy it and love it enough to adorn it with beautiful clothes, accessories etc. Strength, is something I find lacking right now - improve it with some training. Keep it in shape for the possible birth of another child and the increasing age in general.
Emotional - Take charge. Trying hard to internalize that happiness is a choice, not a result of circumstances, what other people say/ do not say/do. Take the onus, change the situation or make it stop affecting you. Find ways to avoid unhappiness, get a better understanding of what makes me happy and use it shamelessly everytime. Give also the my heart the space and time to be sad, angry, disappointed, whatever - but not for long..
Professional - Bear it. My job isn't the one that makes me want to jump out of the bed every morning (and if you think people/ jobs like that don't exist, meet the Mr.), but it does take me out of the home, gets me the money, makes me meet other people, allows to have another facet to myself and occasionally gives me the satisfaction of a job well done. So while I stay on the lookout for the dream job/ vocation - hang in there, with or without a job and respect and enjoy what I have. Also, as Papa advised yesterday, make good use of the money as long as it is flowing in - put on the dust eating financial hat and think some.
Spiritual - Frankly, haven't given that much thought but have begun to think a little about another issue used interchangeably for Spirituality - Religion. Not to mix the two, but do plan to know a little more about the religion I was born it, have an opinion on it - for myself and when the time comes, for K.
Social - Do something, one thing which is bigger than myself which touches one more than me or my near ones. Have been absolving myself with money but that is the easiest to give. It is not the least important to receive but I do want to contribute with some time and engagement.
Enjoyment - Yes, its not a part of me but as the real purpose of life evades me, I do hope it to be one of them. Know what I like, may like and do it - at least try it. Be braver. Create. Found that it is definitely one thing that makes me happy (I have a feeling it would make most happy). Create anything - a dish, a cake, a painting, an idea, a blog post, anything. It makes me even happier than knowing. Probably, this is what creativity is supposed to mean too and not the usual way it is connoted of always coming up with something new, unchartered..
This is probably the heaviest I have written here or anywhere and as amply evident, I am well on my way to Moksh. : ) I just wish I have a rocking time on the way...
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Now, seems like a good time to take stock of where I am. In fact, any time is... but with the 32nd birthday just gone by and K's second birthday and the eighth (yes, eighth!) wedding anniversary round the corner seems like a good time. Not that I haven't done it in a long time but probably want to use this space to organize my thoughts better (a la The Toddler's room plan). Plus, having some goals and those in black ink (Ok, black font) in the cyber space seen by millions of cyber denizens (Ok, probably two) must mean more than just having them in my head churning and changing every day.As probably most of us do, I consider myself a sum of many interconnected parts which influence and draw from each other. They make up my mood, health and the general sense of happiness or well being. I want to address them separately so that none feels neglected and they can all work together.
Physical - Make peace with it. The body has been through a lot since the birth of K and changed in many ways. While working out still remains a distant dream even now, at least begin in the way of eating right ( I believe I have started in my small way). At any stage, fat or skinny (not seeing that in this lifetime again, I am sure), never to belittle (pun intended) the body - respect it, enjoy it and love it enough to adorn it with beautiful clothes, accessories etc. Strength, is something I find lacking right now - improve it with some training. Keep it in shape for the possible birth of another child and the increasing age in general.
Emotional - Take charge. Trying hard to internalize that happiness is a choice, not a result of circumstances, what other people say/ do not say/do. Take the onus, change the situation or make it stop affecting you. Find ways to avoid unhappiness, get a better understanding of what makes me happy and use it shamelessly everytime. Give also the my heart the space and time to be sad, angry, disappointed, whatever - but not for long..
Professional - Bear it. My job isn't the one that makes me want to jump out of the bed every morning (and if you think people/ jobs like that don't exist, meet the Mr.), but it does take me out of the home, gets me the money, makes me meet other people, allows to have another facet to myself and occasionally gives me the satisfaction of a job well done. So while I stay on the lookout for the dream job/ vocation - hang in there, with or without a job and respect and enjoy what I have. Also, as Papa advised yesterday, make good use of the money as long as it is flowing in - put on the dust eating financial hat and think some.
Spiritual - Frankly, haven't given that much thought but have begun to think a little about another issue used interchangeably for Spirituality - Religion. Not to mix the two, but do plan to know a little more about the religion I was born it, have an opinion on it - for myself and when the time comes, for K.
Social - Do something, one thing which is bigger than myself which touches one more than me or my near ones. Have been absolving myself with money but that is the easiest to give. It is not the least important to receive but I do want to contribute with some time and engagement.
Enjoyment - Yes, its not a part of me but as the real purpose of life evades me, I do hope it to be one of them. Know what I like, may like and do it - at least try it. Be braver. Create. Found that it is definitely one thing that makes me happy (I have a feeling it would make most happy). Create anything - a dish, a cake, a painting, an idea, a blog post, anything. It makes me even happier than knowing. Probably, this is what creativity is supposed to mean too and not the usual way it is connoted of always coming up with something new, unchartered..
This is probably the heaviest I have written here or anywhere and as amply evident, I am well on my way to Moksh. : ) I just wish I have a rocking time on the way...
